For the past few days, when I strap on my Roces, its not the same nemre. Maybe its because of all the stress that's going on in my life. My job gives me hours once every few months, no money in my pockets, my mom is kicking me out on my bday in 2mnths, not being able 2 see my bf all the time, best friend isn't even my best friend nemre. The stress in my life is stopping my focus of me blading n pulling off tricks. When I use 2 strap on my skates, I felt like I could pull off nething, nothing could stop me. Now when I put em on, nothing. Depression hits. I don't get that rush anymore. And it doesn't help that I skate alone. All the time. Don't get me wrong, I'm not losing love 4 the sport. Its just hard for me 2 focus with everything that's going on in my life. I decide 2 watch vids of my favorite skater Julian Bah to get some inspiration. And it helped so much. But when I put on my skates, my legs wont let me do what I want 2. Guess I need mroe inspiration. I need relief.